so its actually 12 days left before turning 30.. oh my god, im so nervous. do you feel the same? i think i didn't feel like this at 10 years ago when i finally turning 20. is it weird?

this is a random thoughts that keep running in my head lately as i realise that i will be a 30 years old woman soon. its all about myself. i dont know who i am. i dont know whether i am a good daughter for my parents, a good wife for my husband, a good sister for my sibllings, a good friend for women out there, and the important things a good woman for myself. Suddenly those things are very complex, i started to list down what woman that i want to be? i found the key through books "barking up the wrong tree", he said that "you have to be the one whom u will love for all your life". yes, it really make sense as i will be trapped with my own self till the end. 

So, the next question after found the key, what kind of woman is she whom i will always love? since i dont know who i am now, so i think its better to start from a blank page. i started to ask myself..

what kind of women that you adore so much as a person?

#mythoughts

i think i have to start write what nice books that i read so far (finger crossed), in case i need to remind myself again about what things are important from those books and simply i only have to scroll my blog ☺